Life was like a box of chocolates.

Why this song?: To be frank, I just finished watching Moneyball just now and I like the scene when Brad Pitt's daughter sang this song for him. I particularly like the movie not just because Pete, Brad Pitt's assistant GM in the movie is an Economics grad from Yale. Yes it is cool to see how he managed to see things differently and his decision making analysis methods helped changed the game of baseball as we know it. But not only that, the lyrics of this song is meaningful. I really must admit, I was pretty touched during the last scene when Brad Pitt played the Audio CD his daughter made for him because at that moment everything seemed to boil up within him (although it was during a brief few minutes before credits start to roll)

Sorry for being a bit late, but better late than never. So my three weeks of winter holiday has officially started, finally! Thank God it finally is here! Last week has been quite excruciating for me, having to face an exam which counts a quarter of that whole particular module, and then I had my Arabic exam in a couple of hours after that, all in the same day. I am not supposed to brag about all of these, since I was the one who chose to pursue my studies in the first place, but given all the things that’s happened to me lately, I could honestly use somewhere to let it all out, since I failed to find anyone alive who would want to listen to me, so what the heck, this is all I’ve got left. To be really honest, I don’t think people really listen to what I have to say. I tend to jumble lots of things together when I talk to people, jumping from one topic to another. Why do I do that, well that is by far one of the oldest tricks in the book to keep a conversation alive with people,

You know how people used to tell you that the world does not revolve around you, well yes, scientifically that may be true, but in a much wider sense that saying unfortunately does not hold true, not for most of the times while we are alive. Whether we realize it or not, our lives are actually interdependent upon the lives of people who live around us as well.  This relationship exists between not only human beings, but it goes beyond that, this includes the whole environment of which we are living in at present. What we touch and feel today may no longer be there tomorrow, that is to show how dynamic and rapidly evolving life is. Heck, what more of a proof do you need, the mere fact that death lurk in every corner we pass by should be enlightening enough for us all. If one could live forever, than that my friend is not living. Each moment in our lives will no longer be relevant, what we do today won’t really matter the next day since we basically have all the days we could ever

Winter break is coming up pretty soon, yeay! But what am I excited about? I am not that excited to go anywhere this holiday season. Thus far, I haven't even decided to go for the winter trip that my friends are going to. I don't know, but I just don't feel like it. You might accuse me of still weeping over my break up, but that is not it, I assure you. Though I am still trying ever SO hard to hold myself together right now, that is not the main reason why I don't feel excited about celebrating winter in UK for the first time ever in my life. But that topic still do linger in my head, that I must admit. Forgive me for still lingering in the past, but that is my problem, hence worry not, I shall deal with it myself. Not that any of you could prove to be of any use to me at this moment, anyway. If I am given the choice to simply stay in this hall during my whole winter break, there is a high chance for me to say yes. Not that I want to be anti-social or anything, but

Yeap, you guessed it, we are still talking about my usual issue. It is getting pretty old talking about this actually, but truth is, when I almost thought that I am over it, it will be back to haunt me, especially nowadays when I am pretty scared to face my upcoming exam this Wednesday. It's just an MCQ exam, but hey it will be 25% for that module. Why this song?: I thought of doing what mankind's good at, running away when they are scared, unfortunately I am unable to do so. I was held back by my feelings for her. Frankly speaking, I honestly do care about her, if only she could see that. Perhaps you could argue why do I care so much though I was warned that things like this could happen in the end, thus leaving all that I've ever did for her in vain, wasted just like that? All I can say is this, I am in love with her. I am fully aware of the risks involved when we were together, and now I can truthfully say, I have no regrets, none whatsoever. At least I know now

I do not know what is to become of myself lately. All I ever do one of these days are nothing but sleep and make sure I finish my work, that's all to it. I barely eat on time, heck I even thrived on nothing but a bar of chocolate and a carton of orange juice! Hahaha. What a life, huh. I honestly have lost track of time, I look forward to absolutely nothing right now. All I wanted for is to just simply live on to see tomorrow, though tomorrow may not necessarily brings much good promises. Like the infamous quote by one of the most respected figures here in UK, Winston Churchill, ' If you're going through hell, keep going.' The past few weeks have indeed been very hard on me. Frankly speaking, I am still unable to say that I am well when a friend asks me how do I do because I don't have the heart to lie to them. Yeap, I still am suffering, but why the heck does that matter to any of you, right? By now, you should all be tired of reading me writing about

Mourn the lost, let them not be forgotten. People come and go everyday, but that does not mean when one is lost, you would never see them ever again. The world is a small place to be, faced with the fact of how life can be so full of surprises, we can never tell what the future has in store for us. At this point, there is absolutely nothing that I can do. What's done is done, and yes it is all my fault. I'm beginning to think that I am just not meant for relationships. Like Isky said, 'you could do all the right things,and still end up being screwed in the end.' Hence one could argue, why bother trying in the first place? Well the answer is simple, that is just humans are. We jump and to hope to God that we can fly; the genesis of invention and creativity it originated from people who thinks in such ways. Absurd as they may seemed to be in the eyes of people who lived in their times, thanks to them, infamous names like Wright brothers, Newton, and even the late Stev

This week's song of the week: I Believe in You- Il Divo feat. Celine Dion Why this song: I am not that big on soprano or whatever this high-note singing is called, but I have to admit the combination of the two singers in this song is simply magical. Their voices successfully created a magical sensation that seeps into the hearts of the audience. It's fun to see how Il Divo came out during the first part followed suit by Celine singing her solo in French, a language that is widely associated with romance and love. By now you guys should have noticed how deep and powerful the lyrics of this song is. On a more personal note, I'd like to dedicate this song to a special someone, though she may no longer read this blog of mine. This song couldn't have said all of these better to you myself. I can never forget you, and I hope God won't let me. I leave the rest to you.......

I like to wear a cap lately. I have no specific reason why, but it just so happens that I feel like wearing it. Maybe I just feel like hiding my face. Besides, I prefer it if others do not see my face. At such an age, looks perhaps most may argue one's looks play quite a significant role in life. What those roles may be, one could ask. Well the answer differs from an individual to another. I have never been proud of myself, now that is a solid fact known especially to those who knew since a long time. Which was why I hate filling up forms so much, what more when they asked me to state my achievements, roles and positions I've held in my high school or even college for that matter. I have none, sadly. I am not a success, I admit it. I am no big shot like most of my scholar friends here. My involvement in projects and activities, they are very few plus most of them were very minor roles. Sometimes, I still ponder why am I chosen to be here, among the best from our country. Obvi

Well, this is my blog, so yeah, I have every right to ramble on just about any particular topic, or heck, I could even do so without any topic to begin with, can't I? They say when someone talks about his problems to you once, it's normal. But one goes about it over and over again, it gets old pretty fast. That is just how human brains work, they get bored of the same topic rather easily. When the exact same topic is being discussed, your brain tells you that 'Oh, we've already been through this before. So yeah, lets skip this part and get to the exciting part, shall we not?' Regardless of the details being put forth, we could not care less, as long as the main title of the conversation is somehow similar to what we did in the past. This is where the dangers come in. By not paying attention to these minute details, we somehow lose bits and pieces of the puzzles, which might be useful in connecting all the dots together. So before any judgments are made, lets hear

The song which I think really explains how I feel right now. I had a good one, but I blew it off, yet again. Now, I left alone.

Why this song?: Because it suits the topic I just wrote. I could still remember the first time I hear this tune playing on the internet, I was so dumb-founded by the lyrics. They are so true! At that time, America had just waged its war against Al-Qaeda in Afghanistan, followed by their infamous campaign to bring down the late Saddam Hussein in Iraq. Wars, conflicts and such, they are all means of spreading one's ideas and believes to others. It's just that the medium used is different, an extreme approach as many would say it. As the saying goes, if you cannot make one listen with words, use your fists. We all wish for our ideas and views to be heard, better yet, to be accepted by society. But the real question at hand is, if each of us focuses mainly on spreading our views and believes, who will be left to listen to them instead? I leave the rest to you.......

Last Friday as I was jotting down what my prof was writing down on the board, I received a Tweet from Munir saying that the infamous Dato Seri Anwar Ibrahim was to deliver a talk in UCL later that evening. Upon hearing the news, I immediately began to be interested in attending the talk. I am not a bug fan of him nor his cause, but I do know that this man is a man with a renowned position as a global speaker, thus I finally decided to attend it and see for myself. The talk was brief. He cane with his wife. The title was A struggle for justice and democracy in Malaysia, yet he didn't quite address it very well if you asked me. But I don't blame him though, he did seemed like he still have much more to say, unfortunately he didn't have the time to let them all out. He basically talked about the recently released budget, corruption issue, and how cronyism led to the failure of the current government in combatting poverty. Is one asks me for a comment, I'd say 3 key iss

Why this song?: This song comes from Nickelback upcoming album, ' Here and Now' set for release November 21st, 2011.  I think the lyrics are pretty obvious, how the mankind seemed to have lost their sense of 'humanity'. War , famine, disasters are happening everywhere yet we can still sit comfortably in our homes, watching TV with no remorse whatsoever. Do we not care about how others living on the other side of the Earth is suffering? Yes, that's what this song is all about, it's about standing together as one, to help one another, reminding us of how we can make a change though it may seemed minute. Plus, the song has good music to it, even if you might argue the tunes are kinda repetitive, but for me, that is how you get the message to sink in. I leave the rest to you....... 

Went to LSE the other day, just though I'd pay a visit to that place, just for the sake of having look at what is so special about LSE being so renowned. Initially I thought of going there by tube as it is only one station away, but since I was a bit reluctant to top up my Oyster card, saving it for the weekend, I thus decided to walk my way there. Apparently it was not that too far away from my hall, it was just a short 20 minutes walk away. Lucky the weather was on my side, otherwise I won't be able to do so, besides I was also lucky enough to feel a lot better today, guess my fever was finally coming down. My other reason for going there was to check out it's library. Just wanted to see for myself how the process is in order to access university of London's library. Besides, at least I get a much wider choice of reading material now. What did I think of the place? It does have a modern look to it, seemed like a city campus style university which consisted of

It's been a month now since I first got here to the UK. They say time flies by so fast, especially when you least expected it to, but surely it's not fast enough. There hadn't been a day that went by without me failing to remember home. To miss home, families and loved one, yes that is common suffered by us all. I can confidently say here that I am not the only one who thinks so; the rest of my friends might as well nod in agreement as they are reading this, which is something I am assured of. Things are alright for me as of now; already settled in and all that, but the one thing I still having trouble getting used to is the freedom. Freedom, the one thing I’ve lost grip upon for the last 7 years of my life. I am so used to being scolded that I kind of miss the feeling of being mad at by someone. Not that I am a fool who’s asking for a fight, but the truth is, life sure felt different like this. This feeling of immunity from obligations other than to study is differen

10.10.10 So today marks the 1st year anniversary for me and Sabrina! happy anniversary dear! Oh how I wish I was back in Malaysia right now to celebrate this special day with her. But this is how things are, so we might as well make the best of it, as they say, 'When life gives you lemon, lets make lemonade!' I just hope that she is doing fine there without me. It must surely be hard for her, that is an understood fact, as the same applies for myself way over here. I miss her sooo much, and I know she must feel the same way too. I dare not say anything more, I don't think there are words which could express my feelings very well at the moment. To simply conclude, all I can say is: I miss her....

The death one of the most influential individual on Earth, Steve Jobs. An evolutionist who transformed our lives. It was such a dramatic if I could say so, since the day before Tim Cook announced to the world of the magnificence of the new iPhone 4S. He was a man who had his own vision, and he believed in it. He thinks like a consumer which the main reason why his products are so successful in capturing our attention. He founded Apple Computer on April 1st, 1976 with Steve Wozniak where they worked in Jobs' parents garage; on December 12, 1980 Apple went public, establishing their headquarters in Cupertino, Calif. On October 23rd, 2001 the iPod was born, and the rest was history. He moved on to introducing the iPhone in 2007, a brilliant integration of iPod and a smartphone. He went for cancer treatment, a liver transplant in April of 2009 as he was diagnosed for tumor in his pancreas. On March 2nd this year, he came back form his medical leave to introduce the

Tomorrow is going to be my first lecture in UCL. I can't really tell you how I feel about that actually. I am both excited and nervous at the same time. Excited as this marks the beginning of my new life as university student, bidding forever farewell to my old life as a school student forced to wear a uniform to classes. No more rules as to when I must go to bed, forced to attend events most of which I have no interest in whatsoever. I've had enough of all that, in fact I'd spent the last 5+2 years of my youth living in boarding schools. Goodbye to all of that~ But at the same time, I am feeling a bit anxious to know how I'd do in my first lecture. Will I be able to handle it, or will I face with issues in dealing with transition between these two distinctive lives? I dare not say that I am prepared for this, time will determine that for me instead, in fact there may not be much left that me myself am capable of doing to change anything at present. All I could now is

To begin with, the whole place looks old, vintage. They seemed to treasure their British identity so much that they even made it as a law for a new building to be built, it should incorporate or even maintain the classic British look, perhaps to ensure that it'll blend in with its surrounding. It is good, at least it somehow reflects how much they appreciate their identity and how proud they are to call themselves the Brits. I give it to them, their architectural skills are indeed superb. I for one likes observing all the statues, memorials and plaques found all around this part of the world. They all have their stories to be told to the world, a significant piece of them, though not all of them are saved to be cherished so that we and the next generations could benefit, learn from them. On the down side, the old look does not seem to work very well in selling London as a developed city in the world map. Yes history should be preserved so that it won't be made obsolete by

my last beriyani on MAS..kambing doh! Below are some pictures of one of my favorite night walk, to the Canary Wharf! Malaysian night was taking place in Trafalgar Square on that same night, but unfortunately we decided not to attend it. I actually want to go there, just to see what's it all about, but as it turns out, the visit to Canary Wharf was pretty awesome! The view there was exactly like how I imagined life in a developed country ought to be like (though what we saw were mostly office buildings and bars). The buildings were very modern unlike the ones I usually see in central London.

So here I am in London UK. My last farewell in KLIA didn't turned out as I hoped it to be. It is kind of sad when I thought back about it during my 12 hour plus flight that day. One of the most unforgettable moment while on the flight was when the plane was about to take off. I stared out the window together with Ashraf and Amin until the plane was no longer touching Malaysian soil. To be totally honest, that was the saddest moment. I felt like going up to the pilot and make him turn the plane around. It sure felt like a dream. When my dad woke me up at 4 that day, I was still very sleepy and blurred. Then as I got into the shower, it suddenly occurred to me that today is the D-Day, the big day when I leave this place I call home for London. 12 hours plus in the plane was indeed very tiring! Sure the movies they had in the flight entertainment were nice., but you do get tired of it after the first or second movies. The in-flight music on the other hand was even worse, I did

the last dinner... So here it is, my last night here in Malaysia. Tomorrow morning at about 10:05 in the morning, my plane will be leaving Malaysian soil, and Wafiuddin is no more in Malaysia. Hello London~  My job here is done, time for me to take my leave, and I shall leave the rest to you.......

my about to be 31 years old brother in his Vios...uuuuuu~~~` the last berbuka, almost the whole Kemaman family was here the three Bro's lepak2 session at night see how beautiful Kemaman is at night!! my sepupu2 watching Toy Story on Hari Raya my tok sedara. He can't hear very well these days. From what I've heard, he looks exactly like my late grandfather whom I never had a chance to know nor play with. the outside of his house. He used to scare away goats when we came to his house. hehe my mom's fav thing, ketupat pulut... the infamous lemang Kijal tu weh! this is where we always buy our keropok lekor, a shop found in Kelulut! RM5 for 10 lekor of keropok lekor. mamat nie syok je isap rokok finally, Salam Aidilfitri from us all....

On this joyous occasion, I'd like to wish all of you Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri! Maaf zahir dan batin! (translation: sorry for all of my wrongdoings and all, if any) . So to commemorate this special month, I've decided to share with you guys one of my favorite Raya song!  What I like about this song:  The lyrics tell a story, a reality of a traveler who is far away from home during Hari Raya, how he longs to be home, unfortunately he can't afford to leave his work. It is a very sad song, even for myself who may not have been far enough from home nor have ever missed to celebrate Hari Raya away from my family in my kampung, Terengganu.  salam Aidilfitri from me & my family to yours~ I leave the rest to you....... 

I went to do my UK Visa application earlier today. I left home about 6:15 in the morning, got to Wisma MCA building at about 35 minutes later. When I got there, there were already quite a number of people already waiting for the office to open at 8. There has got to be roughly about 50 people or so. The counter opened at 8, I got number 218, while Ameenah was just before me, thus began our long wait…. People were sorted out, those who made an appointment were asked to sit on one side, while those who didn’t on the other. For us who came without an appointment, the queue began at number 161. 1 st stage This is our main event. Met Asyiq, Ikmal Haqemi (SAS friend), Adam Wan, Saiful, Amirul, Alya, Sara Salim as well a few new friends. While waiting, Ameenah challenged me in a game of UNO in my Iphone. To my surprise, I lost to her four games in a row! She even made me call her a pro! Talked to Adam about his newly gotten scholarship from MAHB, Lilian even Googled about his scholarship

Ola everybody, so for this week's song of the week I'm gonna pick an old song, well that not too old, not like it's a John Lennon's or anything. It's Photograph by Nickelback; a song from their album All the Right Reasons in 2005. What is so special about it: Nothing much actually, just another one of your everyday rock songs with a meaningful lyrics built into it. When I listened back to this song, it'll surely take me back. The past, though mine is not so memorable that I wish to forget it, it is still part of me. It is what made me into who I am today. Like bittersweet chocolate. enjoy~

Alhamdulillah, I finally got the grades required to get into UCL. In approximately a month’s time, I will be leaving to pursue my studies in Economics there. Am I pretty excited to go? Maybe I am not as excited as I should be. Perhaps this has got to be because it was not an intention of mine to be doing all of this in the first place. Nevertheless I am forever grateful to God for this great blessing of His, and I shall make the best out of it. Unlike many of my friends, I don’t actually have a proper plan for my future since high school. Back during my days in SAS, when we were asked to start thinking about our future undertakings, I was one of those boys who were left clueless. I know that I could go for it , but the only lingering question playing inside of my head is ‘what is it ?’ During my earlier years, like many kids I was told to become a doctor. Guess that’s a cliché nowadays. A career that is essential to support the lives of human beings. Who could blame them though; it

Why I like this song: Because of its funky beats. The music itself is composed of a little bit of the old school and modern mix. And besides, the lyrics are nice, so lovely. I wish I knew this song much earlier.

Big today, huh. The expectations and fears of many hangs in the balance, not to mention it even decides how the next year is going to be like, whether a re-sit would be necessary or not. At 9, my friends have begun to bombard my phone, while I was still nicely tucked in bed with my bear. Oh the ringing and the texts, I quickly jumped out of bed and get into the shower, with my Bluetooth all charged, I called Miss Sarah. Honestly, I didn't expect her to pick up at first try, but she did! I was kind of in awe for a moment before my tongue finally got hold of itself to say to her good morning. When she told me I got an A for my Econs, I was so grateful; told the news to my dad who happened to walked on me after I put the phone down, next is surely Sabrina! Sadly though, Sabrina didn't get an A for her Econs. She was devastated about it as she's worked so very hard for it all these while. To make it even worse, I can't be there to help her to prepare for her November pap