Life was like a box of chocolates.

Why this song?: To be frank, I just finished watching Moneyball just now and I like the scene when Brad Pitt's daughter sang this song for him. I particularly like the movie not just because Pete, Brad Pitt's assistant GM in the movie is an Economics grad from Yale. Yes it is cool to see how he managed to see things differently and his decision making analysis methods helped changed the game of baseball as we know it. But not only that, the lyrics of this song is meaningful. I really must admit, I was pretty touched during the last scene when Brad Pitt played the Audio CD his daughter made for him because at that moment everything seemed to boil up within him (although it was during a brief few minutes before credits start to roll)

Sorry for being a bit late, but better late than never. So my three weeks of winter holiday has officially started, finally! Thank God it finally is here! Last week has been quite excruciating for me, having to face an exam which counts a quarter of that whole particular module, and then I had my Arabic exam in a couple of hours after that, all in the same day. I am not supposed to brag about all of these, since I was the one who chose to pursue my studies in the first place, but given all the things that’s happened to me lately, I could honestly use somewhere to let it all out, since I failed to find anyone alive who would want to listen to me, so what the heck, this is all I’ve got left. To be really honest, I don’t think people really listen to what I have to say. I tend to jumble lots of things together when I talk to people, jumping from one topic to another. Why do I do that, well that is by far one of the oldest tricks in the book to keep a conversation alive with people,

You know how people used to tell you that the world does not revolve around you, well yes, scientifically that may be true, but in a much wider sense that saying unfortunately does not hold true, not for most of the times while we are alive. Whether we realize it or not, our lives are actually interdependent upon the lives of people who live around us as well.  This relationship exists between not only human beings, but it goes beyond that, this includes the whole environment of which we are living in at present. What we touch and feel today may no longer be there tomorrow, that is to show how dynamic and rapidly evolving life is. Heck, what more of a proof do you need, the mere fact that death lurk in every corner we pass by should be enlightening enough for us all. If one could live forever, than that my friend is not living. Each moment in our lives will no longer be relevant, what we do today won’t really matter the next day since we basically have all the days we could ever

Winter break is coming up pretty soon, yeay! But what am I excited about? I am not that excited to go anywhere this holiday season. Thus far, I haven't even decided to go for the winter trip that my friends are going to. I don't know, but I just don't feel like it. You might accuse me of still weeping over my break up, but that is not it, I assure you. Though I am still trying ever SO hard to hold myself together right now, that is not the main reason why I don't feel excited about celebrating winter in UK for the first time ever in my life. But that topic still do linger in my head, that I must admit. Forgive me for still lingering in the past, but that is my problem, hence worry not, I shall deal with it myself. Not that any of you could prove to be of any use to me at this moment, anyway. If I am given the choice to simply stay in this hall during my whole winter break, there is a high chance for me to say yes. Not that I want to be anti-social or anything, but

Yeap, you guessed it, we are still talking about my usual issue. It is getting pretty old talking about this actually, but truth is, when I almost thought that I am over it, it will be back to haunt me, especially nowadays when I am pretty scared to face my upcoming exam this Wednesday. It's just an MCQ exam, but hey it will be 25% for that module. Why this song?: I thought of doing what mankind's good at, running away when they are scared, unfortunately I am unable to do so. I was held back by my feelings for her. Frankly speaking, I honestly do care about her, if only she could see that. Perhaps you could argue why do I care so much though I was warned that things like this could happen in the end, thus leaving all that I've ever did for her in vain, wasted just like that? All I can say is this, I am in love with her. I am fully aware of the risks involved when we were together, and now I can truthfully say, I have no regrets, none whatsoever. At least I know now

I do not know what is to become of myself lately. All I ever do one of these days are nothing but sleep and make sure I finish my work, that's all to it. I barely eat on time, heck I even thrived on nothing but a bar of chocolate and a carton of orange juice! Hahaha. What a life, huh. I honestly have lost track of time, I look forward to absolutely nothing right now. All I wanted for is to just simply live on to see tomorrow, though tomorrow may not necessarily brings much good promises. Like the infamous quote by one of the most respected figures here in UK, Winston Churchill, ' If you're going through hell, keep going.' The past few weeks have indeed been very hard on me. Frankly speaking, I am still unable to say that I am well when a friend asks me how do I do because I don't have the heart to lie to them. Yeap, I still am suffering, but why the heck does that matter to any of you, right? By now, you should all be tired of reading me writing about