Happy birthday, Sabrina

Today is the 26th of March. For those of you out there who does not know, today is Sabrina's birthday. How can I still remember? To begin with, I did not have the heart to delete all of the reminders I've set both in my iPhone as well as my e-mails. Frankly speaking, I've been receiving reminder e-mails since last week, which explains why I am a bit emotionally on edge these past few days. I know that by now I should have learn to forget her as she already did forgot about me. So much for being friends, huh? Guess I am the fool who took her words seriously and tried to be a friend to her, while she on the other hand completely erased my existence.

Today is a sad day for me. I could still remember how I planned to celebrate her birthday back in September last year. I wanted to let her know though we are far away from one another, my heart still belongs to her. But given what has happened between us, I've lost hope for ever finding love, live goes on.

So today for her birthday, I've decided to not wish her at all. Because that is the best for her. It is the greatest gift I can ever present to her. I wish that I could just die, that way her wish of deleting me from her memory would be a whole lot easier, unfortunately death is not within my control. Do not worry, Sabrina. I will disappear from your life if that is what you want. If it were up to me, I would not have wanted to go away, because the fact is, I still do care about you, heck I am always here for you if you'd ever need me. But I've learnt the hard way, that sometimes in life, if you really love someone, you just have to learn to let them go.



I don't wanna run, I don't wanna hide
When someone needs somebody
I don't wanna say, I don't got the time
When someone needs somebody
With a little faith and a little soul
We can't go wrong
We can't go wrong

Happy birthday, my dear. I hope you are happy, always. 



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  1. AnonymousTuesday, March 27, 2012 10:46:00 AM

    Fumbling his confidence
    And wondering why the world has passed him by
    Hoping that he's bent for more than arguments
    And failed attempts to fly, fly

    We were meant to live for so much more
    Have we lost ourselves?
    Somewhere we live inside
    Somewhere we live inside
    We were meant to live for so much more
    Have we lost ourselves?
    Somewhere we live inside

    Dreaming about Providence
    And whether mice or men have second tries
    Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
    Maybe we're bent and broken, broken

    We want more than this world's got to offer
    We want more than this world's got to offer
    We want more than the wars of our fathers
    And everything inside screams for second life, yeah

    We were meant to live for so much more
    Have we lost ourselves?
    We were meant to live for so much more
    Have we lost ourselves?
    We were meant to live for so much more
    Have we lost ourselves?
    We were meant to live
    We were meant to live

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