Life was like a box of chocolates.

Yesterday the 9th Projek Amanat Negara (PAN) was held, and I was there with my friends. I went there with again, no expectations since I am just way too sleepy to think. I woke up at 7 in the morning on a Sunday morning, only to wear a suit, tie and black shoes, all of which I have never worn since I set foot here in UK. Heck, I only knew there was an ironing room in our hall the night before, so yeah, you should get the picture by now, how rarely do I attend formal events. Anyway, the whole event started off a bit later than scheduled, as always, Malaysian timing. The first session was by Tan Sri Rafidah Aziz. She talked about career development. The difference in definition between a job and a career, the importance in adding your value once you enter the job market and so on. It was basically one of those talks you would expect to hear when you attend a career prospect seminar. But it really was interesting when she shared with us her experiences dealing with job applicants who...

Why I like this song: This is an old song which I used to listen to when I was young, when I was a bit 'bigger; than who I am now that is. It somehow opened my eyes to the fact that there is more to life than meets the eye. One needs to keep himself strong to face this world, persevere in withstanding the challenges life through at us, and have faith that soon you will reach a plac where you will be accepted. I used to think that I have no place in this world back then, thus my heart yearns to find this ideal place where I belong to. Have I finally arrived to that place yet? I honestly don't think so, my journey does not end here. I leave the rest to you.......

Try asking the person sitting next to you this question, 'what do you hope to achieve in your life?' The answer would either be to be rich, become somebody famous, do something that would change the world, or simply to be happy. Frankly speaking, all these responses are more or less the same, each one of them leads to the other. One cannot simply be rich without being famous, and vice-versa. Ultimately, we all aim to have a happy life ahead of us. It's our nature, we can't deny it. The only difference is by what means do we define each our happiness, since happiness itself is a highly subjective matter. When we come into a junction in our lives where we should choose our options, we all made our decisions differently, without knowing what awaits us in the future. Everybody has their own way of doing things. We are unique in such a way that each of us has a different thumbprint. So why should we try to deny the very nature of our creation by imitating others? I am ...

When I was in secondary school, I had a dream. It was raining that night, so heavily. The wind was so strong that nobody in their right mind would ever want to let themselves be caught in such a terrible storm. I was standing on the roof of a building just beside a street. I was there all by myself, standing on the edge of the roof. The weird thing about this dream was the fact that I felt like I was watching it from a third persona's view, but at the same time, I knew that the man I saw on the roof was also myself. But then again, it was just a dream, anything is possible in a dream. Back to the story, I was wearing a robe like one of those robes of which a Jedi would wear, and my face was mostly concealed by some sort of a silver mask. Then I saw myself looking down to the street below, there was a couple facing one another next to the street lamp. I had a feeling that the imaginary me knew who that girl was. She was the lover of my life. But somehow along the way, I learnt...

Time for a make over. Guess Sarah E and Shankaa were right after all, it is about time I get myself a new look. But I still don't know yet what type of looks I want myself to be. To be honest, I don't think I even have a style that suits me. I am more of a man who makes up my own style, which is why I shop better when I'm alone, well especially now that Sabrina is not around to help me. So yeah, I'm pretty much left on my own. Plenty of work to be done, so let the work begin....God help me~

Why I like this song?: Well for starters, Munir was the one who introduced it to me in the first place. It's a classic piece, doesn't it? At first, I thought it was sang by The Corrs, indeed I was wrong. Why Munir wanted me to listen to this song so much, I have no idea. That I leave to him... As for myself, I really must say I like the lyrics so much! I am still in my emo state, though I tried so hard to fake it, it still showed. Even worse, Sarah E and Shanka saw it on my face. They said it was pretty obvious of me. In their own words,' Your face shows how you're feeling inside.' I should be stronger than this, I know I am, but one does not simply shake such feelings away. I leave the rest to you.......

Morning peeps~ Many doesn't know that I am a fan if speeches, I like to listen to them, honestly I do, but only if I find them interesting and worth my time listening to. Yes, it is a bit vain of me to like listening to speeches, but hey, if the speakers are interesting in the sense of their style of presentation and how the arguments their brought forth. To name a few speakers which I admire, Barrack Obama, Tun Mahathir, Anwar Ibrahim, and also Tan Sri Dr Zeti Akhtar, her speeches on key financial issues are of immense importance for me considering that I am part of her company now. Hehe. Today's topic, talent development. As I've mentioned in my earlier post, talent development and issues regarding human capital building are always so intriguing for myself. Why, you may ask? Why would a 20 year old man who spends most of his time sleeping care so much on such a minor issue when there is a lot of other issues which threats our present way of life? My answer is simp...

Went to a talk later today in Malaysian Hall. To be honest, I was not planning to go in the first place. I thought of just simply lying in bed and read some articles in preparation for tomorrow or something like that. Besides, formal events like this one really isn't my scene. I just don't feel like I belong in places where people talk about big opportunities, business and all, not that I am not familiar with the topics and issues they are talking about, I do keep track of my reading, unfortunately there is something about all this formal events that get to my nerves somehow. First of all, I didn't even know who that guy is. All I know is, he must be some Dato' otherwise this event will not take place in the first place. He works for Pricewaterhouse Coopers, yes that big, world renowned  accountancy firm. Second of all, I don't even know what the talk is going to be about. I must have missed the title when I clicked Attending on the Facebook event last night. As...

Why I like this song: Lately my heart is uneasy. I tried to be happy, try putting on a smile every now and then, but unfortunately it will always come back to me. I miss her, that I must admit. I do, so much. But there is only so much that I can do now to make things right, doesn't it? This song reminds me of the happy times I've had. It even made me realised that happiness is more than what we all thought of it to be. Tranquility, a calm soul is what we all yearn for actually. That is the eternal happiness we long for since the day we were born. This song somehow taught me what I must do to make things right. Yes, maybe it is too late for that, but I must at least try. I trust my feelings, and I know what I must do now. As for the rest of you guys, hope you'll enjoy this song as much as I did!

This post is dedicated to Ikmal, my fellow active blogger. Life is hard, we are presented with so many different decisions each day. Like it or not, we would always find ourselves standing right in the middle of a junction. We have no choice but to make a decision whether to go left or right. As much as we like to turn back, we are not allowed to do so because there are other cars waiting right behind us. But how do we know whether we are making the right choice or not? Truth is, we don't know and we might never know. Once we choose to go turn right, somewhere as we move along, we tend to hear voices of doubts whispering into our hearts, spreading the words of regret. Unfortunately, life does not have a rewind button, nor a fast forward. Thus there is no way in knowing where this road will take us to, nor do we have the chance to turn back to the time when we were still at the junction. Just as the river flows to the sea, so it goes, somethings are meant to be. When I was a...

I would have loved to be able to save my relationship because by far, this has got to be the strongest feeling I've ever felt for someone. But what's done is done, so no use to cry over spilled milk. Besides, in part, it still is my fault anyway. So to answer this, I really wish that I could change who I was last year. If only I was a better man than who i was, I may still have a chance of being with her. To be honest, it's not having to be apart from her that hurts me that much, but it's the fact that I have failed to be her protector even she needed me. I am so frustrated with myself because of that. I wish I could have done better for her. Why? Cause I do care for her. tell me what you wanna know about me...

I would love to dedicate this song to Sabrina. If you are reading this, then this one's for you... I leave the rest to you.......

I am pretty sure that by now many of you should already be well aware of what happened to a couple of our Malaysian students in UK, Ariff Alfian and Amalina Che Bakri. The media, especially the Internet have done well to publicize the stories of these two, thus no further introduction would be necessary I presume.  What is interesting when things such as this occurs is to observe how people react and respond to it. The majority of us, or so I thought, seems to oppose this outrageously drastic evolution that these two students have been through. On the other hand, there are also some who would say that this is a matter of their own personal lives, hence we ought not to interfere with their life decisions, at this juncture, they are more than old enough to know what is best for them. These are the two main school of thoughts available for now, but I am pretty sure that in time, there would be other opinions that would be voiced out.  To be concerned with what happened to...

Appreciate what you have, my friend. Life is scarce, thus you might want to make the best of it. Be patient. Never end up like me. I want my life to be a lesson to all of you of how tough life can be. There will always be obstacles along the path to happiness, but that does not mean you ought to stop moving forward. Always have faith in The Almighty, only then will you be able to trust your own self. The rest is up to you. Take heed from what has happened to me as long as I had lived. So you may live and find your happiness. I leave the rest to you.......

I just want to start of by wishing all of you Happy New Year 2012! May the new year brings with it rekindled hopes and dreams for all of you. I was away for the past 10 days on a road trip or sort around UK. Frankly speaking, that really was an act of God that I finally decided to join the trip. I made that decision the very night before the rest of them left London whereas before that I honestly don't feel like joining them at all, given what has happened. While I was busy doing my last minute packing, I suddenly thought to myself, doubting my decision to join them, but I convinced myself to honor the choice I've made, besides I could use that time on the road to forget about how I once loved someone so much that when she left me for her own reasons, I fell into the abyss of misery. Thus, by God's willing I took that step and chose to follow the winter road trip. As it was a very last minute decision, I had no expectations at all of how the whole trip was going to be. Al...